It feels so good.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
It's official
I did it. I crossed the century mark. And you know what else? I was able to weigh myself on my home bathroom scale. I haven't been able to do that in a couple of years (sad, huh?). Of course, it's probably not as accurate as the one at the doctor's office, but I'll take it.
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Birds flyin' high, you know how I feel...
Yup, that's right, I'm actually feeling good! (And if you don't know what song I'm referring to, then go here)
This past week, I realized that I'm feeling almost completely back to normal. I mean, sure, I still feel a lack of energy, but it's probably about the same as I was 100 lbs ago. I mean, who has a ton of energy when they weigh over 400 lbs? I certainly didn't! I'm not exactly sure how far my weight loss has gone now, but I was at 94 lbs down as of two weeks ago, so I think it's safe to say I've hit the century mark by now. It's been quite the ride. I'm still having trouble with gagging and having the appetite for food, but I'm slowly learning what my body can handle and it's coming along.
Best news this week: I'm off my blood pressure medication! I'd been on medication for high blood pressure (we're talking 170/100 unmedicated--it was bad) for over a year now. Well, in the past three weeks, I went from two pills to one, then to half a pill, and now I'm off it. It's an amazing feeling! And the dizziness is pretty much gone now, so I'm pretty excited about that.
I've been getting compliments a lot--I look amazing, fabulous, so good, etc. Makes me happy! :) I'm so grateful to all of you for your support and words of encouragement. I figured it's about time to post a picture, so here ya go:
Sorry it's kinda dark. I'll have to get all dressed up and have my husband take a picture so you can see it better. But hey, that's me! And I'm feeling good! Hooray! =D
This past week, I realized that I'm feeling almost completely back to normal. I mean, sure, I still feel a lack of energy, but it's probably about the same as I was 100 lbs ago. I mean, who has a ton of energy when they weigh over 400 lbs? I certainly didn't! I'm not exactly sure how far my weight loss has gone now, but I was at 94 lbs down as of two weeks ago, so I think it's safe to say I've hit the century mark by now. It's been quite the ride. I'm still having trouble with gagging and having the appetite for food, but I'm slowly learning what my body can handle and it's coming along.
Best news this week: I'm off my blood pressure medication! I'd been on medication for high blood pressure (we're talking 170/100 unmedicated--it was bad) for over a year now. Well, in the past three weeks, I went from two pills to one, then to half a pill, and now I'm off it. It's an amazing feeling! And the dizziness is pretty much gone now, so I'm pretty excited about that.
I've been getting compliments a lot--I look amazing, fabulous, so good, etc. Makes me happy! :) I'm so grateful to all of you for your support and words of encouragement. I figured it's about time to post a picture, so here ya go:
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
A bit better today
THANK YOU so much to all of your comments and words of support and wisdom. Seriously, they mean so much to me and I can feel your love and prayers as I read them. I am so grateful to know there are so many people out there rooting for me to have success and to finally be healthy!
I met with my primary care doctor today because of those dizzy spells I've been having (had another big one on Monday), and it was determined that it's definitely low blood pressure. It was 90/60 today! So my med dosage was cut in half, and now I need to keep track of it over the coming weeks and, if I need to, cut it in half again, and then maybe I'll even be off of it in a month or so. Hooray! I was hoping that this surgery would help with my hypertension, but I didn't think it would be this quickly. Yay!
Oh, and I lost another six pounds in the last week. That's a total of 91--I'm so close to the century mark, I can feel it. And I'm also right around the weight I was before I became pregnant with my son! That's exciting, knowing that I'm finally back down to where my weight REALLY started spiraling out of control, and I know I'll do whatever it takes to not get back here again. It's a great feeling.
I see the surgeon again this Friday to (hopefully!) remove my drain and see how things are going. I'll post again then! Love you all!
I met with my primary care doctor today because of those dizzy spells I've been having (had another big one on Monday), and it was determined that it's definitely low blood pressure. It was 90/60 today! So my med dosage was cut in half, and now I need to keep track of it over the coming weeks and, if I need to, cut it in half again, and then maybe I'll even be off of it in a month or so. Hooray! I was hoping that this surgery would help with my hypertension, but I didn't think it would be this quickly. Yay!
Oh, and I lost another six pounds in the last week. That's a total of 91--I'm so close to the century mark, I can feel it. And I'm also right around the weight I was before I became pregnant with my son! That's exciting, knowing that I'm finally back down to where my weight REALLY started spiraling out of control, and I know I'll do whatever it takes to not get back here again. It's a great feeling.
I see the surgeon again this Friday to (hopefully!) remove my drain and see how things are going. I'll post again then! Love you all!
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Having a hard time :(
I've tried to be positive on this blog, because this really is a positive thing that I'm doing and I don't want to talk the procedure down--I honestly think it will save my life in the long run. Seriously, though, I need to just vent a little bit right now.
First of all, I am SO tired of the limited food I can eat. And the thing is, I think it's becoming psychological--I almost feel nauseated at the thought of having yet another slice of deli meat, or another bowl of cottage cheese, or another plate of refried beans with cheese or sour cream. So even though the doctor told me to increase my intake and add some more snacks, I'm having trouble doing that because I just can't stomach those foods anymore.
I'll admit it: I miss regular food. I miss pasta. I miss bread, just a little peanut butter sandwich or something. I miss mashed potatoes. I miss salad. It's hard to go without foods I've had all my life! I think it's almost worse for me because, had I not had the setback of another surgery, I would be to a point where I could have a lot more foods by now (not breads, but at least I could probably have some grilled chicken and maybe some peeled cucumber or something like that). But no, I'm technically only on the 2-week-post-op food list, meaning I'm relegated to not many options. It's getting old fast.
I'm tired of not feeling like myself. I've always been the strong one, the one who did so much, who worked so hard, who would go, go, go until people told me I needed to rest. I'm not used to being weak, to having people take care of me, to the looks of concern that my husband gives me whenever I whimper for whatever pain I just felt. It's been over six weeks since I've felt like a normal person, and I miss that.
I've had a couple episodes of tunnel vision in recent days--once at Walmart with my mom on Thursday and once last night at the grocery store. I didn't actually pass out, but I definitely had to hunch over the cart and breathe deeply for awhile. I even broke out in a cold sweat at Walmart and had to sit down. I have a feeling that it's my blood pressure. I've been on blood pressure medication for a little over a year, and now that I'm back to a weight where I didn't have high BP in the past, I'm wondering if the problem is gone, or at least diminished, and the medication is unnecessary. I mean, if my BP is already down to a normal range on its own and I'm taking medication to lower it even more, that could be causing my problems with dizziness or tunnel vision or what-have-you. I plan to call the doctor in the morning.
Anyway, I just wanted to record that no, it's not all sun-and-roses these days. Sure, the weight loss is good, but I'm wondering if it's worth it right now. It will be eventually, some part of me knows, but the conscious, active part of me just wants to be normal. And soon.
Thanks for listening to me whine :)
First of all, I am SO tired of the limited food I can eat. And the thing is, I think it's becoming psychological--I almost feel nauseated at the thought of having yet another slice of deli meat, or another bowl of cottage cheese, or another plate of refried beans with cheese or sour cream. So even though the doctor told me to increase my intake and add some more snacks, I'm having trouble doing that because I just can't stomach those foods anymore.
I'll admit it: I miss regular food. I miss pasta. I miss bread, just a little peanut butter sandwich or something. I miss mashed potatoes. I miss salad. It's hard to go without foods I've had all my life! I think it's almost worse for me because, had I not had the setback of another surgery, I would be to a point where I could have a lot more foods by now (not breads, but at least I could probably have some grilled chicken and maybe some peeled cucumber or something like that). But no, I'm technically only on the 2-week-post-op food list, meaning I'm relegated to not many options. It's getting old fast.
I'm tired of not feeling like myself. I've always been the strong one, the one who did so much, who worked so hard, who would go, go, go until people told me I needed to rest. I'm not used to being weak, to having people take care of me, to the looks of concern that my husband gives me whenever I whimper for whatever pain I just felt. It's been over six weeks since I've felt like a normal person, and I miss that.
I've had a couple episodes of tunnel vision in recent days--once at Walmart with my mom on Thursday and once last night at the grocery store. I didn't actually pass out, but I definitely had to hunch over the cart and breathe deeply for awhile. I even broke out in a cold sweat at Walmart and had to sit down. I have a feeling that it's my blood pressure. I've been on blood pressure medication for a little over a year, and now that I'm back to a weight where I didn't have high BP in the past, I'm wondering if the problem is gone, or at least diminished, and the medication is unnecessary. I mean, if my BP is already down to a normal range on its own and I'm taking medication to lower it even more, that could be causing my problems with dizziness or tunnel vision or what-have-you. I plan to call the doctor in the morning.
Anyway, I just wanted to record that no, it's not all sun-and-roses these days. Sure, the weight loss is good, but I'm wondering if it's worth it right now. It will be eventually, some part of me knows, but the conscious, active part of me just wants to be normal. And soon.
Thanks for listening to me whine :)
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Too much too soon :o
I had a check-up with my surgeon today. I was supposed to get my drain taken out, but Dr. Watts decided to be extra cautious and have me keep it in another week. Oh, well. I'm glad we're playing it safe.
Weigh-in: 352.2 pounds. That means I've lost a total of 85 pounds since I first met with the surgeon in November, and I've lost 52 pounds since I had my initial RNY surgery six weeks ago. That sounds good, right? Well, apparently the surgeon said it's a little TOO much too soon :o I didn't know that was possible! Never in my life did I imagine I would be told I am losing weight too quickly. Crazy.
Anyway, Dr. Watts suggested I add a couple of snacks to my daily diet, as well as start drinking milk as part of my regular fluid intake. I also need to take two multivitamins a day instead of just one. "Weight loss isn't the issue with you right now," he said, so he wants me to up my caloric intake just a tad to give me more energy. I've been feeling rather lethargic, and the simplest tasks wear me out. I thought it was just my body still recuperating from surgery, but it's also my lack of nutrition. So, I'm going to focus on changing my diet a little to make sure I'm doing better.
So, it was a good appointment, I suppose--interesting, at least. My mom is still here, helping me out and keeping me company while I'm at home. I'm sleeping a lot, so hopefully I can overcome that soon so I can start going back to work. It's been a crazy roller coaster, this whole surgery thing!
Weigh-in: 352.2 pounds. That means I've lost a total of 85 pounds since I first met with the surgeon in November, and I've lost 52 pounds since I had my initial RNY surgery six weeks ago. That sounds good, right? Well, apparently the surgeon said it's a little TOO much too soon :o I didn't know that was possible! Never in my life did I imagine I would be told I am losing weight too quickly. Crazy.
Anyway, Dr. Watts suggested I add a couple of snacks to my daily diet, as well as start drinking milk as part of my regular fluid intake. I also need to take two multivitamins a day instead of just one. "Weight loss isn't the issue with you right now," he said, so he wants me to up my caloric intake just a tad to give me more energy. I've been feeling rather lethargic, and the simplest tasks wear me out. I thought it was just my body still recuperating from surgery, but it's also my lack of nutrition. So, I'm going to focus on changing my diet a little to make sure I'm doing better.
So, it was a good appointment, I suppose--interesting, at least. My mom is still here, helping me out and keeping me company while I'm at home. I'm sleeping a lot, so hopefully I can overcome that soon so I can start going back to work. It's been a crazy roller coaster, this whole surgery thing!
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