Wow, it's been almost six weeks since I last posted. Guess I just didn't have a whole lot to say! I felt like doing so today, so here's the latest.
I had my six-month check-up last month. Labs were good and BP was just slightly elevated--it wasn't even mentioned by the surgeon. And I'm feeling great. I even walked to my sister's house tonight to return a toy of her daughter's that was left at our house, and my son and I raced back--and running wasn't a problem! Hallelujah! I even kept up with him (though I'm not sure he was giving it his all...)!
It's hard to believe, but I am steadily approaching 250 lbs--I'm just over six pounds away. 250 is the weight that my surgeon told me to I would likely get to between 12 and 18 months after surgery...and it's only been seven months. It feels like almost daily I pull clothes out of my closet and wonder if they'll fit--so I try them on and not only do they fit, but they're almost a little baggy. It's such a weird feeling.
It's strange to see some of my bones starting to show. My collarbone, for instance--hey, haven't seen you in a few years! In fact, I only saw you briefly for about a year during my whole adult life! Good to see you again :) And I was laying down on my bed tonight and realized, whoa, that's my ribcage sticking out just a tad (not that it shows when I stand up, but it's been ages that I've felt them stick out even when lying down). And I really notice a distinct lack of padding on when I sit on a hard chair.
My skin sags all over. At least it's mainly in areas I usually keep covered by clothes. And I'm sure it will lessen with time and as I work to tone those muscles. Sometimes it bothers me, that I'll never really be rid of it, these saggy, stretch mark-covered batwings on my arms and elsewhere...but then I realize, these are my battle scars. I have been through a war, and I'm finally winning--but I'll never be the same person I was before, and I need those reminders to help me remember and motivate me to never go back.
I can conquer anything.
5 comments:
Oh my gosh Carina - I hate to say the same old trite thing, but wow! I am so impressed and in awe of you. Way to stick with the hard thing and overcome. You are simply incredible and I love and miss you!!
How very excited to be almost to 250! That's awesome! You are doing so well - so proud of you! Does your insurance cover skin removal? Some insurances will cover skin removal - so look into it. :D
You CAN conquer anything! And you look wonderful. Love you girl!
I wanna see updated pictures! You are truly amazing! Way to go, girl.
Yes! Please post pictures? It was so fun to see your skinny mom at the reunion! Now I can't wait to see the new skinny Carina! Really, really proud of you, my dear! I know how hard you've been working, and you're correct, you have battle scars. Battle scars from a war well fought and won. I love you, Sweetie. I can't wait to see you...my dear sweet, skinny niece!
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